Here we go, the pictures from Punggol Seafood on Friday!

(ALL pictures Copyrighted(R) Hwee Ping 2006. =p coz she has done such a wonderful job editing them, i won't forgive myself if i don't reuse them. Heheh.)


Sample of our sumptuous meal at the! Though none that great. The rest we forgot to take as foods were served to hungry packs of wolves.


"Can i have your order mdm?"


Quan Jia Fu 1!


Quan Jia Fu 2! Family portray by the pier!


The Pier.


Quiet night.

















That's about all to the presentable pictures we took. Some pictures to the pre-event too~~~! With Hwee Ping and me at my office... and the stupid things we did..:


She made me pull the cow...


Poor cow~~ Later got milked by her...






















Don't believe them when they tell you that you will see LIGHT at the end of the tunnel, u don't! You see us.


Suave. Phui.


Application for full-time Children's Society Model


The Pro-shot! Pro hor? Heh.


Heh.


Nice hor!? The nicest picture! i think..










Uploading pictures is a hassle.. O.O" Man, i must say Hwee Ping ah, you ARRRE GOOD at editing! Saves me so much time too~~! Heehee

Final dance scene from the movie "Step Up":



I love the dance chorography!

Now, the Dance Club Scene, another of the best dance scene in the show, cool~~:



Heh!

Awww...... Its still November??

When is December coming? =(

Feeling less and less moltivated to work. I wanna return to student life... Soon! 2 more months, before school reopens. It suddenly dawn upon me that time can actually crawl when you are working, yet you wish youe aren't. Sigh...

Enough whining.

It has being a rather fulfilling past few days for me, so it seems i have not updated the blog for a while, shall do it now!

Thursday
Met up with Guoxiong for dinner at AMK Central. Had the infamous western food. Nothing much in particular happened, just a dinner and some catching up, since his exams is FINALLY over.

Friday
Met up with Social Work classmates for the long awaited Punggol Seafood at Punggol Marina! Wah, never knew it's so far to go in there! The food was okie... We came for the infamous Chilli Crab, but i think the ones at Joo Chiat was better leh. The bun that came with the crab was good though! Haha.

Spent quite a lot, but i think its the gathering that made the trip worth. Wanted to hang out at someone's place after that, but never in the end, coz it was too late. Took some photos and later manage to get a cab that was willing to squeeze all 5 of us in and took us out of the "ulu" country club.

Kee Choon and i made a little blunder about a bus service and caused everyone to walk from Punggol Estate to SengKang. Haha. Digestion mah!

Anyway, prior to the meet-up, Hwee Ping pop over to my office, played pool and took some stupid pictures too!

Will post up the pictures in a later date! (when she sends me the rest of the pictures on her camera!)

Saturday
I packed every precious minutes of this day! Weekends are soo precious... Morning i have to work! Until 1pm! Then it was off to meet Kuang Hong at City Hall! Shop around in Marina Square area, bump around and i had to go to the toilet like every 30mins. Kuang Hong laugh at me =( I become Mr. go-toilet.

Parted at around 6+ and i went off to church. Cleared somethings up with my church friends, i don't know if i made the right decision, but i told them anyway, gonna be away from them for a while.

After i left church, i felt a little empty... So... In need of Mahjong Therapy! Last minute jio 3 others and off they are, all gathered at my place for overnight mahjong! Played till 4+am. Although never play money, i also never win =( Thanks to Guoxiong, Peiqi and Hong Choon for entertaining my last minute call! Breakfast at Punggol park and came home to finally sleep at 6.30am!

Sunday
Woke up at 1pm! After a few exchanges of SMSes from a colleague and dozing back to sleep after replyin... I wake up. Aww.... Wanna sleep... But had to wake up, because Baby Ean, my colleague's 2nd son was having his 1st month anniversary! Must go! So went, meet my colleagues at 2.30pm and proceeded to her place. Played with babies and finally left at 4pm to meet Guoxiong (again) to buy tickets to catch Step Up. And we had to bump around J8 until 6+ for Senchou to arrive before we had dinner and bump around somemore coz the show started at 8.35pm! Step up is a nice show! Nice dance and nice story.

Aww... Reached home at 11pm! SO tired. Didn't wanna wake up today.

I received this letter from Monash today:






Yay! I don't care how true it is or whether that Monash had simply sent them to all the students on it's list. The letter had made my day and i am HAPPY! =)

When you get reeeeaaal bored in the office...

Yesterday night was a night of get-together. It was a gathering of a group of buddies that have not seen each other for a while. Wenjie, Kaisheng, Junming and me. (Minus Vincent who's in the US...)

Congratulations to Kaisheng! Shan't say why! Heehee.

I can't believe we chatted, and until we realised it, its already 12midnight. And i had to break everyone up because i had to work TODAY.

As we talked, Kaisheng asked me how i've been getting on, whether i have moved on. No worries guys, i have! Although the heart is healed, its empty though. He then mentioned that previously, i was the envy of him (which made me very happy at the moment lah) as he thinks i was (notice i use "was") handsome, sung well, and probably also that i had a super nice girlfriend (to him). He thought i had the confidence he lacks (then).

Well, no. I don't think i am handsome, i sing but i don't sing well and most importantly, i don't think i was at any time confident. Not before, most definitely not now. Maybe, i can get confident in front of the right person. So... I'l wait patiently for the person who will bring out that confidence in me.

Maybe, being in a relationship can bring out the confidence in you. Because i see the confident in him now. Contradictorily, i think i am in turn envy of him now. I see in him as someone who is VERY knowledgeble, knows what he wants in life, has personal opinion, is able to engage people, and has become more and more empathetic with those around him. And could it be the relationship that has shaped him into what he is today? Could it have been passed relationship that shaped what i was then and also the failed relationship that too had shaped what i become today?

Anyway, i must thank Vincent for bringing all of us together. Because i don't remember being real close to some of them when we in Sec school, but we became closer now. A little history, i was from a different class from ALL of them, but its because of Vincent that brought us together to hang out (and of coz theres basketball and all).

Honestly, in the group, i still feel a little belittled (even today). Back then, they were from the "elite" class, they go to JC and are now undergrads. I was in the "not-so-elite" class, went to poly and is now in what others considered "private school". Naturally, i feel "out-of-place" when we are together. Of course, i don't think they can do anything about it, it's just me.

The only time when i felt i've won is probably when i was the first among them to get attached. So that probably boost my confident a little. Now that i am single once again (while they are all attached), i probably had "returned" to the "out-of-place" feelings. Plus the difference in our experiences, me working while they study. That probably explained why i was rather quiet during the meet-up. Still, they are close friends definitely! People who (if i allow) will stand up for me.

=)

Sidenote: They say to meet-up again after their exams! And they too say they should bring their partners, so that they (the partners) can know us and each other's partner better. I AM SO NOT GOING! =( Blah. Haha.

Amazing. I went shopping with Dad today!

What i bought:
1) Glucosamine/MSM/Chondroitin - $210.00 (For Mum!)
2) Vitamin C1000 Tablets - $30.00 (For Mum n Dad!)
3) Yomeishu Tonic Wine - $38.90 (For Dad! - Filial am i? Heh =p)
4) "Semi-formal" Working Shoes from Bata - $25.00 after discount! (Weeeh! I finally got my shoes!)
5) Ankle socks - $6.95
6) Pack of 6 Arch Files from Popular - $17.00 (For my overflowing module notes!)
7) Tea Break at the foodcourt- $6.10
Total Expediture today: $333.95!!

Wah! I spent so much! Now i'm ultra broke! But all for a good cause, and i am HAPPY now =)

Guess what! For spending so much at Compass Point i got:
1) 1 roll of Christmas wrapping papers!
2) 1 "Make-a-wish-to-Santa" lucky draw form -which i dun even know what to fill!
3) 2 tickets to Toy Musuem at Compass Point for children aged 4-12! (What!?)
4) 6 chances of winning a trip for 2 to SantaLand! =)
So much for spending over $300 dollars O.O'

I did not go to church today. I ended up at the beach. Alone.

The sky was beautiful, the breeze soothing. And i guess it helped me think.

(I'm seriuosly considering coming to San Franc come June, 2weeks! Vincent ok??)

A lot of people close to me have been advising me on my choice recently. And i would like to thank them for hearing me. Vincent, Hwee Ping, Kuang Hong, Ying Ying (who advises me on another matter and probably won't know coz she dosen't know i have this online diary).

Maybe they didn't know that they were advising me, but they did anyway. Maybe i didn't show that i took their words seriously, but i did ponder over them.

I have been giving this much thoughts, about my decision (or not) to follow God. These pals, they shed lights to me about what's gonna happened should i take on the path. I know where they are coming from and how they felt. They did not insist that i follow the way they think (Say, with the exception of Hwee Ping who is a SWK-to-be, when did the rest learned the SWK skill of being non-judgemental and allowing informed choice? heh.).

I was giving it much thoughts, but although i still do not want to announce my final decision, i sort of had an answer in my heart. THANKS ALL!

I think the way i think nowadays is a little influenced by church, things that happens, if it's good, i think its God's grace, if its bad, i think is God's test for me. Strange heh? Anyway, Trinity and church did walk me through some of the darker days of my life, and i am grateful for that.

Yesterday night, i met my mum at the toilet (strangely, i called it met, we live in the same house, but still we didn't plan to talk, maybe i didn't plan to talk, but we talked anyway).

I realised that she had a lot of things planned out already for me, i wouldn't have known until she shared them with me. She even thought out how much i would earn next time, how much i should save and spent, how i can prepare for my own future. She shared how much she is willing to give me for the next year, how she will worked hard for now and slowed down after i graduate. How much i could give her next time and what she will do with the money i will give her.

She knew my decision to want to have my own house and she respected that. She ask me to buy my own place and leave this house to them. For that, i am very glad. She shared so much, and i know that all she wants is to see me happy and successful.

All i want is to see her happy too. And i am happy to know that she cares so much. So how could i hurt her? How could my selfish needs over shadowed her love? There are so many problems in my family already, should i be adding them on? From whatever she is giving me, and whatever i am taking from her, it's simply unfair.

I know what i should do.

I meet-up with Kuang Hong today at Kovan! We had not met for a while and so decided to meet up for a chat! (Come to think of it, i think its always him who initiate the meetings! Oops! Sorry KH! I try to be more pro-active ok?)

It was nice to be able to talk to somebody, especially when you've been through a lot and you wanna talk about it and let it all out. I must admit, KH is just the right person, like me, he is juggling both studies and work, and so he can definitely understand the struggle i had to go through.

We shared a lot about life, about how each of us are coping (or not coping) with it, we shared our future plans, about relationships, and of coz, crap a lot about everything. And i shared with him a little about God too.

(Vinz... Why are you in US! Xiong! Can your exams be faster over?)

I pray for him that he can survive through his next few years of studies! KH, its gonna be a tough journey! Hang in there! We'll make it! Go fulfill that dream of yours!

Side-note:
Would like to apologise to Senchou for not being able to meet you for lunch today! Let's meet again!

Side-note 2:
Hwee Ping, are you feeling better already? Care to share what's bothering you?

...At a Malay coffeeshop, after a hearty dinner with KH today:

Me to KH: Hey, i've only $5 bucks, you top up the rest 1st ok?
(Signal to guy)
Me: Hi! Can we have the bill please!
(KH eyes grew big and looked at me with an "Oh SHIT"-look)
KH: I got... $7.00...
(...Stares at each other... while Guy with a straight face came over)
GWSF: $14.00.
(...Oh SHITZ...)
Me to GWSF: Hi, em, we sorry, we dun have enough cash, would you mind waiting while i go withdraw some? I'm sorry!! (=D Threw an innocent smile)
(GWSF =.= walked away... still with a straight face...)

Oh my god! He must have think we are idiots! No money don't eat lah! I came back shortly with monies, paid and we fled, probably out of embarassment! And we had a good laugh after that! Hilarious! Well at least to us! Indeed... A hearty meal, topped with generous laughter afterwards!

You cannot imagine the stupid things that will ALWAYS happens when we go out together~! Me and KH! Just to name a few (that i can remember!)

1) When he was "sway"
We were in Sec Sch, we were on a bus to Sim Lim, i was listening to my Discman (Hey! Back then it was still Discman ok!). I looked at him.
Me: You wanna listen?
KH: Nah.
Me: Ok.
(After 5-minutes...)
KH: Ok, i wanna listen now.
Me: Ok.
(Gave him 1 side of the earpiece)
KH: No sound..?
Me: Battery Flat le.

2) When he was lucky
We were still in Sec Sch. KH wanna buy a CD and was short of cash.
KH: Hey, i wanna buy that CD. But i don't have enough cash leh. Can lend me $5?
Me: Em, let me see if i have.(Search through wallet)
Me: Em... ...$0.10...$0.50...$1.00 em... (...counting...) $4.90! (Back then we were poor students!)
KH: Wat!? $0.10 more only leh! Find leh! Find!
Me: No lah, don't have!
KH: Wat!? Look properly leh! =(
Me: Don't have lah!
KH: $0.10!!!

(After another 5minutes)
Me: eh? i think i have another $0.50 leh...
KH: (Fell off the chair) Wah lao eh!

He can probably remember more! Maybe i get him to remind me the next time! Maybe its not funny to YOU, but i certainly find it hilarious! These are things that when you sit down with one whom you have grown up with, and you can remember and laugh off those stupid things that happened while you were young.

I'm a simple man! I am so easily contented! Just a few good words from my boss and it actually made my day? YES!

Its pretty funny isn't it? Just when you decide that this job is not meant for you and you probably have made up your mind to leave, you suddenly find yourselves more and more attached to the job. Especially just this 1 week when i finally not have to go to school anymore and things are just happening?

Actually, if not for my studies commitment, i probably would have started to love my job already. Its pretty fun to mingle with youths! I call them kids lah. Its especially so when the rapport is coming up and they start to want to look for you! At the Vivocity Charity Gala Night, i had my fun just going from 1 group to another to mingle and interact with them and checking out where all my breakdancers are!

Its fated. I am no Programme Coordinator. Why? Because if you ask me to return to this job after i graduate, i won't. I will probably be looking for greener pastures. I can't stay on because i know myself. The job is too taxing on me, the commitment too big. Imagine every single activities in RoundBox under my care (not to mention ad-hoc programmes?)! Now theres only 3. When there are more, how do i cope?

I am starting to learn my boss style of working. And i am slowly understanding and believing in the way she thinks, as a boss, i think she knows what she wants for her centre, and she wants it! I know where she is coming from. So for understanding her, and understanding myself, i believe we better not work together. Her expectation and mine mental capability when school starts WILL not match! And from the organisation's and her point of view, if i can't commit, then i should be fair to the centre, i should go!

It's sad isn't it? Just when i started to like my work, just when i started to rapport with my youths, just when i forge some close relationships with my colleagues, just when i'm starting to understand and accept the boss and vice versa, i have to go.

PS. I spoke to a very passionate man about Boxing today. I probably won't see the programme kicked off at RoundBox. =(

my heart is as incomplete as this.

I am just waiting for someone to fill my heart once again.

What the hell had happened in the past 8-weeks man? I don't know, it just zoomed past me. Now, i only remembered BURNT WEEKEND, ENDLESS NIGHT TUTORIALS, ZOMBIE MORNINGS, DAZED AFTERNOONS, and TOTALLY DESTROYED and UNHAPPY FEELINGS!

Not that i hated studying. I LOVE IT! In fact.

I think i just can't handle so MANY tasks at a time. Maybe... Maybe it's a wrong choice for me to have started work immediately after placement. Full-Time work somemore!

Having looked back on the past 2-months, i felt that i have almost wasted my times, wasted the tutors time. I never read the readings before classes, i go to class unsure of the day's topic, i didn't know what to contribute to the class (since i have no idea). Assignments, i had the worst time this semester, having churn out the last assignment only on the last submission day and almost not finishing, somemore using working hours to do! This is hell. And i hate it. I didn't even managed to contribute much to the group project and i seriously need to apologised to ALL...

So Hwee Ping, please do not attempt full-time work, its academic suicide. I really envy, respect, take my hats off to people like John, Siew Wah and Esther whom are all engaged in full-time work, yet they had all managed to survive! The 2 ladies did not share how, though i knew John had a hard time too~~

This sets me to rethink how i should take my life from now. Education is important to me, especially since my parents are getting old and they would love to (and i would want to) have me supporting them! 1 more year is the most i would want to spend on studying.

That's so to say, i may want to concentrate on studies for the next year. That's so to say, i also want to take up Honours programme (which runs concurrently as the final year modules) so that i become more "marketable" when i grad! That so to say, i should QUIT MY JOB once semester starts next Feb.

I am going to justify my leaving the job with taking up the Honours programme (coz that will means 5 weeknights in school!), so i really hope i can get in. And with my puny effort this semester in handling the assignments, i can't help but worry. No matter, i will still apply for it in Dec!

I just hope that things will turn out well.

Know, actually, i'm still unsure of what i am doing now. True, i always felt the joy when i go to church, i found meanings in the Word of God, i believe in the pastor's preaching that have sometimes touches my life. But... I'm afraid. Because my parents are non-christian? Bulls eye. They don't know, how to tell them? That's why i'm holding back.

Sometimes, i just felt God talking to me. I was just thinking about backing out, and today at service, it was announced that the next service would be a series of "Faith redefined", talking about having faith in him and in whatever we do. Is he asking me to hang on? I don't know.

I think about what church can do for me. As a person, i am practical, i think of the future. The church provides a place of faith-building. A nurturing environment, i can see how my children later will be able to benefit from a nurturing environment like Trinity. Besides, i have always dreamt of a church wedding, taking over the hands of my bride from the bride's father. Think too much? Heh.

Seriously, its a big commitment, and i think i will take it slowly, easily, as time goes by. If i and him (God) is fated to have such a relationship, nothing can come between us, if so happens that we aren't meant to be, just let it be. Time will tell. Faith will tell.

Today, i met-up with Hwee Ping before i headed out to church. My god! She changes my presumption that girls DUN eat! (Okie... My presumption came from my ex-grilfriend who can't eat a lot n i usually become the rubbish bin...)

We met from 4-6, between the times, all we did was eat! First we had delicious ice-cream at Serene Centre, then we had 2-pieces chicken at Coronation Plaza! Then she DaBao 1 FULL Spring chicken! (okie... Don't frame her! She bought for her family...)

Good good! I don't like girls who watches whatever she eats and watches every single calories gained! I mean watching your weight is good, but what's life if you watch everything you eat?

We actually wanted to eat the the BIG prawn noodle at Adam Food Centre, but they haven't opened! Too bad~! Never mind, got excuse to go back and eat! Funny, the stall sells prawn noodle at the price of: $3 (small prawns), $4 (big prawns), $5 (extra big prawns)!! o.O"

So... Hwee Ping, when shall we dine again?? And let's drag KC and company along~!

Somethings strikes me nowadays, the inevitable happenings in life. I believe now, everything happens for a reason, and only god knows it. He has a plan for you, you just have to follow.

I think back about some of the things that happened in my life.

If i had not being posted to Montfort Sec, I would not have known Jackson.
If i had not known Jackson, I would not have gone to work at IRAS.
If i had not gone to work at IRAS, I would not have known Jiaqi
If i had not known Jiaqi, I would never have gone into Social Work.
If i had not gone into Social Work, I would never have attached to Probations.
If i had not attached to Probations, I would not have known Sabrina.
If i had not known Sabrina, I would not have known Trinity.
If i had not known Trinity, I would not have known God.

I am an introvert. Haha, i guess i am.

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It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
oh to you

I am burning out soooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnn...........