What the hell had happened in the past 8-weeks man? I don't know, it just zoomed past me. Now, i only remembered BURNT WEEKEND, ENDLESS NIGHT TUTORIALS, ZOMBIE MORNINGS, DAZED AFTERNOONS, and TOTALLY DESTROYED and UNHAPPY FEELINGS!

Not that i hated studying. I LOVE IT! In fact.

I think i just can't handle so MANY tasks at a time. Maybe... Maybe it's a wrong choice for me to have started work immediately after placement. Full-Time work somemore!

Having looked back on the past 2-months, i felt that i have almost wasted my times, wasted the tutors time. I never read the readings before classes, i go to class unsure of the day's topic, i didn't know what to contribute to the class (since i have no idea). Assignments, i had the worst time this semester, having churn out the last assignment only on the last submission day and almost not finishing, somemore using working hours to do! This is hell. And i hate it. I didn't even managed to contribute much to the group project and i seriously need to apologised to ALL...

So Hwee Ping, please do not attempt full-time work, its academic suicide. I really envy, respect, take my hats off to people like John, Siew Wah and Esther whom are all engaged in full-time work, yet they had all managed to survive! The 2 ladies did not share how, though i knew John had a hard time too~~

This sets me to rethink how i should take my life from now. Education is important to me, especially since my parents are getting old and they would love to (and i would want to) have me supporting them! 1 more year is the most i would want to spend on studying.

That's so to say, i may want to concentrate on studies for the next year. That's so to say, i also want to take up Honours programme (which runs concurrently as the final year modules) so that i become more "marketable" when i grad! That so to say, i should QUIT MY JOB once semester starts next Feb.

I am going to justify my leaving the job with taking up the Honours programme (coz that will means 5 weeknights in school!), so i really hope i can get in. And with my puny effort this semester in handling the assignments, i can't help but worry. No matter, i will still apply for it in Dec!

I just hope that things will turn out well.