Know, actually, i'm still unsure of what i am doing now. True, i always felt the joy when i go to church, i found meanings in the Word of God, i believe in the pastor's preaching that have sometimes touches my life. But... I'm afraid. Because my parents are non-christian? Bulls eye. They don't know, how to tell them? That's why i'm holding back.

Sometimes, i just felt God talking to me. I was just thinking about backing out, and today at service, it was announced that the next service would be a series of "Faith redefined", talking about having faith in him and in whatever we do. Is he asking me to hang on? I don't know.

I think about what church can do for me. As a person, i am practical, i think of the future. The church provides a place of faith-building. A nurturing environment, i can see how my children later will be able to benefit from a nurturing environment like Trinity. Besides, i have always dreamt of a church wedding, taking over the hands of my bride from the bride's father. Think too much? Heh.

Seriously, its a big commitment, and i think i will take it slowly, easily, as time goes by. If i and him (God) is fated to have such a relationship, nothing can come between us, if so happens that we aren't meant to be, just let it be. Time will tell. Faith will tell.