yes i walk alone. no, no one can understand me. not even you.

6years ago, maybe more, i am not sure already. My (ex)girlfriend said to me: "Why do you not share your problems with me?" 6years later, it seems that i still have not open my heart out to many, yet. Maybe... Only her... But she does not know everything either. She knows the most, but not everything.

It took her an entire 5-years, to have me talking. And it never happened again after that. Here and there, i exposed part of my hearts to people whom i thought can understand. Here and there. I trialed, i errored. Is there such a person as a soulmate? Is there really someone out there, whom i can share my life with, talk to without being judged? Understands and accept? Who would like to try? Who would even care to??

I don't deny it, i don't share (a lot). You probably need more then screwdrivers and spanners to open me. You need electronic drill systems, a durable pair of helmet/goggles and bring some dynamics along too. Most importantly, bring patience and a heart full of perseverance and sincerity. I am easily touched.



I saw, from a friend's friendster of a recent breakup. The friend has since got a new girlfriend. His ex-girlfriend even posted words of encouragement for him, to move on and be happy with his new girl. Such wonderful girl, strong words of encouragement, hiding behind her own tears and struggles. Of course, its what i perceived. Whether or not there is really tears and struggles, i am not sure, but girls being girls, they probably feel for the guy.

I am always sadden by break-ups, especially of those known to me. And always brighten by new relationships, coz its the beginning of something new, and magical. So i sincerely wished my friend for the best in this new beginning and his ex a speedy recovery.