It is true that Geminis' always think about life. Having lived for the past 23 years, i have not stop pondering upon it. What is the meaning of my very existence? I guess everyone will define this differently, and i am no different, i define it by my own way too.

At one point of time, i felt god made a mistake about me. Another, i thought i knew why i'm here. Now, I believe that everyone is here for a purpose, that we are here on a mission, we may spend a lifetime fulfilling it, but we will finish our task, and move on.

I'm defining my purpose of being here, through countless pondering, endless thoughts, i am here to make a difference, to all around me, to put a smilez always on their face. I am not a saint, i do not want to save the world, although i will if i have the power, but at least i can make a difference to those who have come thou to me.

There are so many people out there whom we can make a dfference to, the old auntie trying so hard to cross the road, the kitten stuck on the rooftop, the destitute who had no place to live, the delinquent who had taken the wrong track, the pregnant woman on the MRT Train. It is just so simple.

Another purpose, to find the very someone on this very land who is meant for you, to have, to hold and to protect for the rest of your life. She too, is looking for you, to have, to hold, to support and to love.

I envy those who have someone to hold on to now, i use to have too, but she has gone, for she and i, have completed our purpose together, and we must move on. It was hard, but it was meant to be this way.

I read somewhere and still strongly believe, the first love in your life, is there to teach you how it feels like to be loved, the second love teaches you how to love another unconditionally, the final one may neither be the one who loves you most deeply or whom you love most, she will be someone whom you are able to spend the rest of your life together with, to stick through thick and thin.

Jiaqi taught me how it was liked to be loved.

"Do you, _____, take _____ as your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part."

"I do"

I like wedding vows, they mean so much, the power of the 2 words, means that 2 has become 1.

"Your cup will never empty, for i will be your wine.. With this candle, i will light your way in darkness, with this ring, i ask you to be mine.." -Victor, Corpse Bride