Spinning...Spinning...Spinning...Spinning...Spinning...Spinning...Spinning...
I am ssspppinning...
Headache.
Why is there so many things bogging me everyday! Suddenly, i really missed my NS days where i only wake up to eat, read newspaper, and go back to bed...
And i think i AM really missing those days, that i have to dream about meeting up some old army friends in some god know where places... Well, the thing is, i wasn't even close to the people i dreamed of, yet i dreamt about them... neverthelessly, i woke up feeling good, n wishing i could keep on dreaming... Dream forever... Dream on...
Then, thanks to my thrusty HP alarm, it has to remind me that its time for me to go to work...5.55am...Argh...
I think i shall list down what's bogging me...:
1)5x Assignments not finished
2)No time to do readings..thus...usually lost in class...thus..dun feel like gg class
3)Unsupportive work environment... I dun even know my purpose of being there anymore
4)Family problems
5)Placement agencies not confirmed
6)Not enuff sleep...having to wake up at 6 every morning...
7)Blues...unsure...about school... I am realliy doubting now how my 2hrs/wk/mod (i take 4 modules) + readings + more readings + too much independence studies (aka, u read on your own... n god knows how much u understood...) will benefit me later for a career...
Strengths Perspective.. Lets see some of the things that keeps me going now:
1)Peiyi just told me that my placement is pending and i have a high chance (i don't want to pin too much hope, but it keeps me going)
2)I am counting down to stepping out of RGS, though i think i will miss my girls (4 more weeks, hopefully).
3)Late night suppers with friends!
4)Long awaited gathering at jieming's place
5)3x public holidays on the way!
6)Friends outing
7)NSCallup in June (y am i so happy about this!!? probably its a break from work and i get to meet old friends!)
8)Da Chang Jin! (haha, i am glued on this.. a little something to look forward to everyday!)
9)Graduating in 1.5yrs time! (i can't wait!)
10)Reading about Prison Services
Oh, i have officially tendered! There are mixed feelings now, sort of happy that i finally let something off my chest, but sort of can't bear to leave some of my girls and closer colleague... aka.. Minghao.
Time now, 1754, i am going to skip tonight's lesson... Going to have a nice break, and later, jio Nic out for supper!
Always wanted to post sometihng nice, but in the end when i am here writing, it is always when i felt down.
God help.
Spinning Headache.
