OH my god, i have officially gotten used to waking up at 10am in the morning. This is so not good. How!!??

My semester has officially started, and i still haven gotten the slightest idea how to go on with my Honours research. How!!??

I want to finish my assignments ASAP! But still have no heart to do it. How!!??

I want to do a bit of work. But i got too many 条件. Like must be no-brainer job, must not be long-hours, must not have commitment, must pay reasonably-well. Like how!!??

I wanna go out and run, do some execrises, but i can't get my lazy ass off the chair. (Plus it keeps raining these days...) How!!??

I AM JUST SO SLACK. How!!??

I haven't been updating for a while.

I am so lost in thoughts recently, so many thoughts that i can't put into words. So spare me... I'l write when i feel like it.

Now, i think i'l go back and drown in my deepest sea of thoughts. Bye.

i received an SMS from Kee Choon:
KC: I saw the online requirement for human perspective topic 1 only n almost fainted.

Hahahahaha. Kee Choon, its only Topic 1, there are still 2,3,7... until 12! All the same. 加油吧！ >.^

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another from JQ:


JQ: I wanna give u something big.
Me: What? =)
JQ: Em, Actually, its your scanner la...
Me: Chey! I thought you so good. That is call RETURN. Haha.
JQ: I though it is very important to you mah, that pouch also, but it seems u dun care =(
Me: I tot is i given you already?
JQ: Its borrow from you la!
Me: izzit? Mixed up le lah, give you so many things before...
JQ: 被你气死了！！

我做了什么了吗？？？ @.@"

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A few days ago...

Me: Eh, you must remind me we are meeting on Thursday hor.
YY: Why must remind you!? You organise de leh!
Me: ... ...

Just now...
SMS from YY: Remind you that we are meeting today hor!
Me: =>

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Sigh... Apart from a few rumbles here n there, life's kinda boring. So bored till i rather not post anything, nothing to write mah!

I NEED A JOB! (IMAGINE ME Crying out loud)

可爱吗？！他们都叫我表舅！



还有最小的那个！ 还不会叫人！ =p

感觉好幸福哦！ 我也要小孩！ =）

大年初一，我, Alvin, 在此祝愿大家龙马精神，学业进步，“猪猪”日上！


又要去拜年了， 大家期待吗？ 可以拿红包， 看到许多许多许久没看到的表哥表姐，姑姑阿姨们。。。 可以大开赌博“杀戒”，杀个片甲不留， 还可以吃到好多好多平时吃不到的东西！

不过啊，说真的，人越老了，就越不是那么期待过年了，每年的年初一和二，都好像是在重演过去的初一和二。 不就是要说几句好话，应酬应酬亲戚， 还要准备一对对白来应付他们对你一年来的“人生报告”要求。 唉。。。

所以，今年，能免责免， 我和爸爸妈妈决定早点离开拜年的地方，好好出去享受享受三个人的天伦之乐。 =〉

我还是喜欢过年的啦，喜欢的是那种朋友来我家，我去朋友家那种，不需要红包，只盼个跟朋友能够聚一聚，打一打麻将的那种时光。所以朋友！几时打麻将？！

（以后，一当我有自己的小暖屋后，过年的我家一定热热闹闹！）

“为什么人会吸毒。。？ 我后来发现。。 人吸毒是因为空虚。。。 那么到底是毒品可怕， 还是空虚可怕呢。。。？”

I watched 门徒(Protege) yesterday. I think it was a rather nice show, except the fact that i suspect the National Council Against Drug Abuse has got some "legs" in the whole show loh, because the whole show was trying to preach the "Don't take drug... Or end up like 阿芬 (张静初)" and "Don't sell drug... Or end up like 昆哥 (刘德华)" and of course "Don't be stupid, and become a runner for other people selling drug and end up like 芬夫 (古天乐)"

Of course, the bad guys all died in the end while the good guys got on with life.

And also, if you expect Andy and Louis to be the main star in the show, change that expectation. Coz they are more like supporting characters, while the whole story revolve around the undercover cop 阿力(吴镇宇) on how he busted the drug lord single-handedly.

Okie CNB, have you received the message yet? You NEED to start putting up posters to recruit undercover cops if you ever wanna solve the Singapore drug problem (which luckily its not that bad to begin with).

But overall, i still liked the show =)

好久都没过的孤单情人节， 终于在2007年的今天度过了。。。

今天的我，选择了“闭关修炼”， 不想外出，不想看到一对对情侣， 拿着漂亮的玫瑰花， 一盒盒的巧克力，成双成对的走在大街上， 炫耀着自己带着的情人与情人节礼物。。。

不想让世界知道自己的孤单。

其实，从一个“吃不到葡萄说葡萄酸“ 的立场来看，这也何尝不是件好事， 不用细心安排一天的节目， 不用买礼物，不需大费奏章。

过去的5年，都不需要在乎情人节有没有人陪，应为有情人嘛！ 说起来可笑，如果有人问我第一个情人节怎么过。。。我还真的想不起了。。。 “第一个情人节呀！这么可能会忘！？“ 你问。。。 啊。。。 人老了，记忆不好。。。 不好意事！

有个情人，情人节总比较有意义，毕竟，是个让自己给情人表示自己爱意的机会嘛， 不过，如果爱意要等到情人节才来表示，那还有意义吗？ 我和旧情人想法一样，不喜欢情人节，认为是个“商业计谋”， 以往情人节都尽量普肃度过，简简单单在家里准备点自己做的小吃，不买花，不送花。 在有些人的脑海里，这一定一点都不浪漫吧。。。 不过，对我们而言， 这就是情人节，在一起，每天都应该是情人节。

不过, 话说回来, 人是犯贱的, 虽然不喜欢情人节, 但在这一个那么有浪漫气息的季节里, 总希望有个人一起度过... 一起分享...

那年深深爱过 也深深痛过
爱完了 然后她走了
时间哗啦啦啦过 泪也唰啦啦啦流
她忘了 把心还我

把心细细上锁 也密密缝过
为什么 眼泪还在流
爱是笑呵呵的风 然后哎呀呀的痛
直到你出现 拯救我

Chorus:
你把孤单消灭 都消灭 全都消灭
给我安慰 抱着我 哄我入睡
我的世界 每天笑笑到累
累得很满足才甘愿

你把孤单消灭 都消灭 全都消灭
给我安慰 抱着我 哄我入睡
你的笑容 我一定很宝贝
从今天到永远

Bridge:
永远不会疲倦

那天我眼泪偷偷滴在碗中
你做了 刀削面 为了我
刀削面就像你的深刻温柔
越削过 就越甜越感动

哄我入睡 – 品冠



This song has become one of my favourite song out of a sudden =) Lyrics has a certain meaning to it that i like, plus the tunes catchy ya!

那年的确深深爱过， 也深深痛过， 爱完了， 她走了， 我也忘了把心要回来。。。
曾经一度把心细细上锁， 也密密缝过， 爱。。。 真是哎呀呀的痛
现在没事了啦！ 时间总能缓和一切！
不过那个能够拯救我。。。一个能把我的孤单消灭，都消灭，全都消灭，给我安慰， 抱着我哄我入睡的宝贝在哪里呢。。。？

Downed with sore-eyes, sore-throat and a probably sore-throat induced fever...

Whine... Whine... Whine...

How do you explain the job of a social worker to someone who have zero idea what we do? Man, that got me...

My relative, my "Da Gu", visited my house this morning. While here, being the "concern" and "inquisitive" gugu that she is, she asked me "What are you studying ah? Next time can do what?"

Then i started to have a hard time explaining... "Em, it is ah... you know poor people... ah we help them.. Ah.. Then ah... Got many kind lah, like some will teach the young not to become bad... ..." @~@"

Later she looked at me and said... "Oh government job ah?" Ok, that settles it for older people, "YES GOVERNMENT JOB."

Sigh...

How many people really understand our job...

She then proceeded to promote to me what her children, aka my cousins, are doing. They have become Real Estate Agents! "You know, They take home about $5000-$7000 a month leh!? Next time after you finish study, you can join them, they can show you the ropes!"

Me? A Real Estate Agent? You must be kidding me! I don't have the "sales talk" quality in me lah! My cousins are smoooth-talkers, have the ability to sooth the birds down from the tree, me, i am rather contented to be able to write reasonably well. I DON'T SMOOTH TALK. So i think i better stick to my "government job", no doubt the $$$ isn't that comparable to the "private sector".



Back to the point of nobody understanding what we do. It is such a sad fact that social workers faces the same (if not more) life stresses as doctors, nurses, have a wealth of professional knowledge on socially and psychologically helping a person, yet we do not receive the same professional recognition as we deserved in our work.

More often then not, doctors and nurses are portrayed on the front-line as the angels of health, but we (social workers) are often forgoten as the back-bone drive on getting people back on track.

I wonder how much longer we (social workers) have to be contented with hiding in the back-room and preparing the glamour outfits that our fellow professions wear while performing on the world stage. When will it come to a day that we can put on our own glamour suits and walk alongside the "elites" telling the world who we are and what we do.

I'm not clamping for glam, but isn't it about time people start to understand more about us? I, for one, have had enough of my cousins asking me "Is it volunteer work?"

Kinda nothing interesting to update these few days. The 5-day series of SWK workshops were hell-tiring of course, and i wonder who elses besides SSTI will actually plan a workshop on Sunday between 1.30pm-5pm!

Lets recap, Wed (7-10pm), Thu (7-10pm), Fri (1-8pm), Sat (9.30-4.30pm) and Sun (1.30-5pm). Wow, NUS also not so siong!

Well, besides being busy with classes, i have also had quite a time getting down and dirty doing the houseworks, spring-cleaning, decorating the house and getting all the new year stuff =) So all in all, ever since the returned to student life, things have been great!

The family received a jolly piece of good news, and that had being the greatest greatest piece of news ever for a long long time since i could remember! Not going to elaborate, but just rejoice with me will ya?

And i sincerely pray to whoever is listening that things shall remain the same for the many many months to come! (At least till i graduate at the EOY, can can?) Please just pray for me EVERYONE!

2007 has been kind to me so far. Initially i thought that the year was gonna be real bad. Off to a bad start anyway, with all the initial happenings, i was in fact made rather miserable in the initial days of Jan 07. With a twist of fate, i now am happy, joyous and in full aniticpation to embrace come what may. =>

Erased undesired memories of early Jan 2007 and cheers to the future!

My own simple self-prepared dinner. =>

Edit (080207): A friend commented that i really shouldn't eat MSGsss soup from discarded Maggi Mee packets... So i think i better clarify that the soup you see is actually the Campbell's Cream of Chicken, not some leftover packeted materials i found in the trash... And also, the seemingly grossy splat of "red" stuff you see is actually the Tomato Chilli Tuna. SO! If it still looked bad, you probably don't wanna taste my cooking ever! Unless of course, you are that special someone whom i will put in the extra effort to cook for. *Wink*

Honours programme is getting me excited! The thoughts of having my own published work in an Australian University's library, a Singaporean resource centre and a hard-bound copy to call my own IS getting to me already!

Still, the thoughts of rrreallly doing a research project is kind of daunting. Its really going to be going out there and DOING SOMETHING about it! Its pure practical work with tons of consideration. Whether is it feasible, is it ethical, can i ensure confidentiality, research bias, am i contributing to the knowledge already available, will any agencies be interested in helping me, will i be able to get grants for the research, am i answering anything constructively, am i able to get hold of my target participants, how am i going to go about doing it, will i read enough for the topic, what am i finding out, how would i find out, what questions am i going to ask, what can i get out of the questions i asked, would i be able to do it? Tough.

Still the prospects of actually achieving something that i will be proud of does outweigh all the anxiety felt! And i'm gonna get it done.

Right! Its going to be a long long 3-months!

(3 more days of workshops... Gosh!)