To: you-know-who-you-are

I don't know whether you will ever read this post, but i am writing it anyway.

We had some misunderstanding a few days ago. Apparently we speak a different language again. I happen to see what you wrote about the incident. And it is just so you (you know what i mean).

Thinking back, i am a little too much to ask for that. I'm sorry. It is the way that i put things across that never seems right. I have since work out the solution myself.

You have not change at all. All i want to say is DON'T REGRET OR FEEL BAD ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY OR DO! AND DON'T LOOK BACK.

If, if you are wondering how i feel now, i am ok. You don't have to put down your pride just to talk to me, you are not in the wrong in the first place.


Alvin

I know i know i shouldn't be writing now. But heck, i just reach home, i need to cool down before i start work!

I'm screwed! Serious. Assignments due on 31st (x1), 6th (x2) and 10 (x3)! Lotsa work deadlines as well! Working on Saturday! Attending a colleagues's daughter 1st birthday on Sunday~! Staff retreat on Tuesday~! SCREWED!

waaaaooo... i wanna have some time for myself! =(

(2 and a half more weeks Vin... 2 and a half more... Hang in there)

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I went to NLB after visiting a colleague's place for Hari Raya! And guess what? NLB dosen't open on a public holiday! Idiot hor! Should have checked! =(

Anyway, it's the first time i got invited to both Deepavali and Hari Raya celebrations! Our fellow ethnic group's food are ssssoooooo great! I had my fill (so did my tummy grew in proportion too)!

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I foresee Christmas and my upcoming life to be very fulfilling =)I wanna go to church!

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We seem to forge a very good relationship, the Staff Induction group =) In fact, i look forward to more outings with them =) Wonder if we really are going to celebrate Peter's birthday in McDonald =p (They make feel to stay longer in my organisation =D)

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Had a really long walk with Kee Choon. Not those slow romantic kind btw. Just happen we failed to hail a cab home and ended up walking to Little India! Crap.

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My computer tells me "Keyboard error. Press F1 to continue". SMART. How to press F1 when my keyboard error?

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Kee Choon made me wait 30minutes, when i told him foodcourt, he thought KFC. Was it me or him? He treat me dinner! Ok =)

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I accompanied Hwee Ping to study on Sat, then she called me stupid on her blog =( Unfair!! (Ok... i did make use of her place lah... =D)

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So many things to do. So little time! Why am i complaining and still writing here >.<" ok bye!

Ali Babas are the "legal" loansharks that operates within the hearts of Singapore. These Indians (usually Indians) are ex-RSMs and ex-WOs who are retired and have nothing better to do to come up with this ingenius idea.

Ali Babas operated by offering you, one who needed a loan, to buy a piece of electronic at any high-end electronic stores under your name and pay them by installment. The Ali Babas will then take the electronic you bought, sell it at a lower price and give the money to you as your loan. He will off course charge a commission. You are then left to pay your debts off through the installment.

Example:
You need a loan of $1000. You approach Ali Babas (AB). AB ask you to buy the Sony 29inch TV at $1200 and pay them by installment. He takes your TV and sell it at $1100 to another consumer and give you $1000 (your loan). You are then left to pay the "debts" monthly (since YOU bought the TV rem?)

John Lee (2006), "Ali Babas and his wonders" in Social Policy and Social Justice 1, SSTI:Singapore.

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He is a good teacher lah, very knowledgable. But there he goes again! =D

Seriously, i think i earned quite a lot about Alternative Dispute Resolution today, stuffs about settling things out of court, negotiations, conciliation, mediation. I just don't remember how it led to the Ali Baba issue.

Its a pretty nice day! Went out to study with Guoxiong! Under his request, we went to TCC at NAFA! Supposely now his favourite hangout~! Haha~!

Oh YEA! I finally got the Blazer that he and Senchou bought for me~! It's my birthday present~! And my birthday was em...4months ago~ =.=" Never mind, i still love it! I still love them for being so thoughtful, and so nice to me! So guys this paragraph is dedicated to you! Cheers to more than 12years of friendship!! We must keep this relationship growing and growing and growing even after the very last day of our lifes! That's a promise.

I also want to use this chance to thank those who have showered me with love, care and concern, especially during these tough periods in my life. You may not have done much, but just by being there for me, you have done enough. I may still seemed very closed up to you, but deep down inside, i'm glad that you asked.

And to my brother in the US now, thanks for the weekly calls to check on me~! I really appreciate that. I just hope everything is going well for you over there! =)

(OKOK, back to my Sunday!)

Woo~~ Got him the TCC Membership Card (coz accumulate enough receipts le mah), he must be damn happy loh~! (maybe only i think he happy =x)

Quite nice to do work in the cafe, only thing is that, its subjected to the amount of battery power my lappie has! Oh, also ya, TCC's internet connection is very powerful! Unlike the famous NLB which promises FREE internet usage!

Hmm.. That guy fell asleep immediately when we reach TCC, guess he must be damn tired... Then he later chided me for doing something with his lappie =(

Off to meet Senchou for dinner at PS around 6pm. We couldn't decide what to eat and bumped around for at least 30minutes... Bumping bumping untill we really buump into another old school friend! Wah~! Qiao loh!

Then talk talk talk untill we become having dinner together with her friend as well @.@. At the Manhatten Fish Market! Long heard about the place, but never being there, so quite happy~! (Coz finally know where to eat~!) Actually, the food like so so only leh, we had the seafood platter for 3! So oily... Think Fish n Co better!

Talk talk talk somemore, end up this Friday maybe playing mahjong together! Wah~! What a day~!

My brother Guoxiong asked me why i talked so little during the dinner. Well, i guess there are still some knots in my heart left to untie. I still didn't feel comfortable in the social setting of chatting and sharing with others. Is that what 5-years of closed relationship can do to you? That's what Guoxiong said. =(

I WANT TO GET MORE COMFORTABLE WITH PEOPLE!

Tonight i went to meet my ex-girlfriend for dinner and a show (Rob-B-Hood). Nothing much happen during the day, pretty smooth-sailing, that's good.

We didn't talk much about life, probably more of work and updates. Had Long John Silvers, it's pretty funny and she notice it immediately after she said it. I ask her what she wants and she went "The usual", then she quickly add on "Combo 1", haha, like she thought it was like before and i will know what she wants, then she remember things are not the same anymore and i probably forgot what's "The usual". Well, of course, i do know what "The usual" is, but it's just funny. Heh.

(Oh, sorry guys, i've sorted out my feelings! no punk intended! juz nice to meet up a good friend)

Later went to do some shopping with her. It's always good to have a girl around when you need to shop, i needed to get something for my office and viola, she knew exactly where to get it!

Then the movie, Jackie Chan is getting too old for stunts lah, the show has got too little actions as compared to his previous shows! Well, its worth watching, if you like babies! The baby is ssssooooo cute! I want babies like him~ =)

After that, went for a last minute supper with Hong Choon! Had a nice sharing session with him. We talked about many things (mainly about him, haha), and i learned a lot about him tonight as we spoke. Things i never knew, things i promise him i will keep to myself. Nevertheless, it was a nice chat. More of him sharing his problems with me, i'm just glad that i'm the one he looked for when he needs to talk. Even if i couldn't help him with his problems, at least i had provided him with my listening ear. =)

(I like to share others problem, so guys, if you have any problems, come talk to me, i promise you i won't ignore you! I can't promise you that i will be able to solve your problems, but i promise you that you have my full attention ok? =) )

I believe that you must have trusted someone to a certain level before you will share your intimate secrets with him. Whenever someone is willing to share their stories with me, i feel blessed that i have gained someone's trust.

Likewise, you would have gained my trust whole-heartedly when i decide to share things that i don't tell to many with you. Of course, you probably won't know what i told people and what i don't, haha! I'l leave you to guess and find out ;)

Gosh, it's been 2weeks since i last went to church, i miss church.

I probably am not going to have any life untill 10 November 2006. ASSIGNMENTS!!

Hope i can survive this month~! Or should i say this semester.

Weekend was good (boring). Did nothing but assignments! Good, at least i'm done with the law thing, the online postings (to which i actually put in effort for the second posting - Transgenerational Family Therapy!) and the damn Skills essay!

I think i had bullshited my way through all the assignments, i hope Australians don't mind the "dungs" i threw at them! Considering the number of cows they have over there! (lame)

Ah look, thats what 2 days of extreme boredom can cause! AAAhhhhhh...

Oh, i've sort out some thoughts recently =) And i thank God for that!