It's amazing how, simply, a week of rest can do to one.
1 week. Pure rest. No work, no studies. Purreee rest. (I could have achieved Nirvana then you know)
I feel rejuvenated, alive once again, and ready to face new challenges!
Forward to a new start from tomorrow! It will be my first day of work at the Singapore Children's Society, Toa Payoh Youth Centre. I am a youth worker, once again!
(I can't wait)
It's being a while isn't it. That i've actually slowed down to think about my life, and most importantly, to pen them down.
It certainly has been a hell of a ride. Especially through the last few weeks of my placment. I have learned so much for the past 3months, so much about myself, about what i could do, about my strengths and weaknesses, and most importantly, i have certainly become clearer in the direction that i am headed for.
To be honest, i almost screwed my internship. Life's turned upside down. it's amazing how life can turn against you all of a sudden and you find yourself lost in the vast wide world with no one to turn to but thyeself... That's what happened to me... Things just happened, and i hardly coped.
Home affected my work affected my home affected my work... It was a never-ending vicious cycle!
It's amazing, how at times like this, when you flash through your mind to think of who could help you, but you find no one, no one intimate enough to whom you want to share your thoughts, that feeling, is miserable..
I certainly don't know how i made it through in the end, maybe faith... maybe God showed his mercy on me. Maybe just before the last week of my placement, i went to church, and i prayed, prayed that all will go well. Maybe... Maybe he had helped me... THANK YOU.
Nevertheless, i made it. And i also had the luxury to get away for a few days to clear my mind, to clear my heart, to set the record straight once again. Thanks to these few days, i have made one of the greatest decision in my life. Now, it may sound ridiculous to many, this decision, but it took me all these while to realise it. That decision is for me to now take on my life (slowly) on my own, no longer will i touch mum n dad's hard-earned keeps for my selfish needs! As such, education, still important, is not going to be my main priority anymore. Career is, i will earn my own keep, save them for my own studies, and even put aside enough extras to contribute back to them. It is a big decision, for i have to put forth my education to another year. So be it. I can't bear to see them suffer so hard anymore.
I have big plans for my life ahead. I know how i am going to take my life from today. It's going to be a tough ride. Starting from the 1st day of September 2006, it will be a new journey, a new chapter in Alvin's life story.
This is the new life 06.
Maybe you guys would like a preview of the people i work with ;) :
(warning: offensive material ;))
Interestng?
Yes i work with them. No, i am not their member. And no, of course not everyone are like them. It's just that this video paints a very good picture of my clients! Yes, i work with probationers! And some of them involve themselves with gangs.
Yes, i enjoy working with them. No, i don't see them as probationers. And i am sure they would not want me to see them as offenders. Left with 2 more weeks. I think i will continue working with youths.
Hurhurhur.
Alright! Going out! Going for dinner at Bugis (some Nonya food Mr Tan recommend...)and watching 龙虎门 later. ;)
